A new year has started. 2020 is here. It could be this year or any other. It is a new beginning. The very same new beginning we get every day and even every minute. We can choose to stop doing something or do something new. We can begin a diet, a new lifestyle, or the pursuance of a new healthier habit. It is so important to understand that we are moving forward and that we are organized defining our need to keep it together or be in control. That control enables us a sense of value, belonging, and presence. It can surely have a weight on our emotional, and mental state.
I have a hard time working in a messy environment, therefore, I organize my bedroom and desk before studying or working. It works for me. I have a feeling it is the same for many people. Yet, all of a sudden I enter my closet and realize that part of my organization is putting things in the closet. I cannot see the items that were in my way before because as I organize I find a place for them inside my closet.
Let’s compare for a moment the organized room and desk to our everyday thought life and the closet to our deep inner self.
What do you see?
I’ll tell you what I see. My everyday need for functioning is lived on auto-pilot, my everyday thought life is just like my bedroom and desk, and my closet is like my deep inner self-thought life. In the same way, I need order on my desk to work I also need order in my brain to work. Therefore, if any difficult or painful thought comes along, I put them in the closet. I just have to be in control. I need to function. I cannot lose my job, I still have to attend to my family, etc.
Have you considered what happens to the closet when you keep on adding items? You might be hoarding on items you will never ever use again. The same might be to the closet in my brain. If I continue to store feelings, important thoughts that are crying out “resolution” or “pain” at some point my mind will not have any more space and I might implode, explode or I might become nom.
Looking at my closet for a moment and having this discernment about my inner self and the relationship between them made my new year’s resolution be to slowly but surely pay attention to my closet and reorganize, give away what I can, and choose to throw away what I must and create space. Hopefully, with a newfound awareness, I will use the new space better than I did before.
I invite you to pay attention to your surroundings
I invite you to pay attention to your surroundings, they usually speak of ourselves. It is as if we send messages to ourselves somehow. it is as if we physically do on the outside what it is on the inside. It is very useful. You can only move forward since we cannot go back in time.
Now it is time to commit to positive change
I commit to slowly cleaning my closet. I also commit to paying attention to those “resolution” and “pain” thoughts and work on them just like in my physical closet. I Choose to give away what I cannot hold on to by myself, throw away (Make peace and let go) of what is not work holding on to, and make new space. In this newfound space, I will aim to stop throwing stuff into that space blindly and in a hurry. I will instead keep a journal where a section of it will be especially for those crying out thoughts that I cannot deal with now. I will make appointments with them for a later time, but I will no longer hide them in my closet. I am so blessed. I am now aware.
With much love,